I’m not always clever with the words I use
You want something deeper, yeah I know you do
But right when I hold you, don’t you know they’re true

One look in my eyes and you should know the truth…

You know how they say you’ve got the real thing
When nothing else matters?
I love you like that 
I love you, I love you, I love you like that

All I wanna say: I’ve got the real thing 
When nothing else matters
I love you like that
I love you, I love you, I love you like that

– “Love You Like That”, by Dagny

Another Fun Nosy Questions Meme Thingy

Thanks for the tag @mrscullensrutherford​! Here are the rules:

1. Post the rules

2. Answer the questions given to you by the tagger

3. Write 11 questions of your own

4. And tag 11 people

Because I’m a lazy bitch I’m not going to make up new questions. Besides, the ones that @mrscullensrutherford​ came up with are awesome already. Tagged friends, please reply to these same questions!

1. What is the first thing you do in the morning?
Hit the snooze button. No joke. Fuck mornings.

2. What was the last book you read?
Milk and Honey, by Rupi Kaur. It’s a poetry collection – I usually don’t like poetry that much but I LOVED this book. 

3. What consumes your mind? What do you think about most often?
Uhhhh…. The next piece of Aloy/Nil smut or fluff I’m going to write? Is it bad if this is like 90% true? HAHAHAHA… FML.

4. PC or Console?
Console. PS4 specifically. I haven’t played a game on PC since Diablo. 

5. What draws you to a character?
– Characters in general: a good backstory. A character who’s not holier-than-thou or too much of a goody-good. Importantly, a character with emotional range and complexity. Prime examples: Aloy from Horizon Zero Dawn (and uh like every fucking character from HZD actually), Garrus Vakarian from Mass Effect, Nathan Drake (and Sam Drake!) from Uncharted.
– Love interest characters: I have a terrible weakness for the Bad Boy (or girl!) with Complicated Pasts/Secret Pain/a Tender Heart (whether the complicated past/secret pain/tender heart is canon or just my own HC). Examples: Nil from HZD (#1 Murder Husband), Reyes Vidal from Mass Effect, Damon Salvatore from Vampire Diaries, Aria T’Loak from Mass Effect. 

6. What is the scariest thing you’ve ever done?
HAH. Nothing. I’m boring. 
If I had to pick, I guess I’d say moving from my home city (Toronto) to an unfamiliar city (Montreal) where I knew nobody. I’m a homebody and a scaredy cat who gets homesick really easily. It was easily the best choice I’ve ever made for myself – I made some amazing BFFs, met my fiancé, finished two Master’s degrees and fell in love with the city itself.

7. What is something most people don’t know about you?
I’ve got a raging bitch hidden beneath this cute little smile. HAHAHAH.

8. What is your favorite movie?
Her, with Scarlet Johanssen and Joaquim Phoenix. Incredible sci-fi and incredible romance movie, with an incredible soundtrack by Arcade Fire.

9. What are your goals for 2018?
Uhhhh… go on a fucking trip somewhere? I didn’t travel anywhere in 2017 and it’s kind of making my soul slowly die. 

10. Do you create playlists of songs?
YES. EVERY MONTH. FOR EVERY MOOD. FOR EVERY FIC. I have two Aloy/Nil playlists and a Reyes Vidal (SEX) playlist. I’m a playlist fiend.

11. What is one thing you love about yourself?
I was talking to @makocartwheels about the fact that women tend not to praise themselves for their strengths and good qualities enough, so how about I go against that and make a little list of things I like about my damn self?
– I’m a good writer. I write the smuts and the relationships good.
– I can use liquid eyeliner to do a fine cat’s eye, thank you very much.
– I’m a good listener and I can see both sides of (almost) any story. I’m so sympathetic/empathetic that I’m pretty sure I would get Harley Quinned if I ever met the Joker.
– I’m a good cook and baker. 
– I’m an excellent flirt (not that I do that much anymore – see above mentioned fiancé). 

And now for the tags: @horizonfan12 @hellarcanine @makocartwheels @erendandaloy (throwing your questions back at you, girl!) @bluegreenketchup @littlesnowarrow @jadefyre @sun-bae Uhhh… and now I’ve run out of steam. If I missed you and you want to play, please feel free to join in! I especially want to hear your answers to question #11. DON’T BE FUCKING SHY, YA’LL. SHOUT YOUR OWN PRAISE.

I was reading your fanfic ‘Stormbird and Stalkers’ and noticed you misgendered Jenava. He’s trans but you refer to him as ‘her’. Could you fix that, please?

TL;DR response: Yes certainly, I will fix ASAP!

Longer response: one of the things I found interesting about Horizon was that (IMO) a lot of interactions are up for interpretation. I felt that Janeva’s was one of these, especially since there is a lack of explicit trans-friendly language, and I had two possible readings on Janeva’s character:

– Janeva is a trans guy, or
– Janeva is a woman who is just fucking sick and tired of people seeing her gender/sex before they see anything else. 

I’m a cis hetero woman so my bias was to just go for the second interpretation in writing my fic. BUT after talking to lovely friends and poking around on the internet for opinions, it’s clear that the primary and beloved interpretation of Janeva is a trans guy, so I’m more than happy to change it. 

Peace! ❤️

horizonfan12:

Girl, whatchu smiling about?

Aloy: Oh, nothing. Well, it’s just… remember the time those bandits tried to ambush me? But I set an overridden watcher on them, and then that Longlegs came over and screamed at them, and then the watcher attacked the Longlegs and its air bladder exploded and…

Girl. Breathe.

Aloy: Can’t. Too funny. You can’t plan for these things.

*special thanks to my incredibly talented friend @pikapeppa for helping me come up with a creative narrative. You’re amazing, girl! ❤️*

😂❤️

nerdy-bird125:

Don’t get me wrong, I love the thought of Nil being this Dom who’s rough, throws you down and pounds you mercilessly, but I also like the idea of a gentle Nil.

The Nil that’s starved for affection, the Nil who doesn’t know how he should react when someone finally touches him.

The Nil that pulls you close because he doesn’t want to feel alone anymore.

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I got all of ya’ll covered, boo.

The World and All Its Lessons: A Song of Aloy and Nil
(Read on AO3)